They watched her with the kind of awe reserved for freaks…
Her eclectic sense of style and hedonistic way of living aroused in them both fascination and disgust. Not because her manner was exorbitant and screaming to be seen like those fostering some deep insecurity; she had long outgrown that innate craving inherited by humans to be validated by other humans. Her demeanor took on a sort of felinity that was sensual and unapologetic—and there is nothing that disturbs those still entangled in the webs of their own bondage than a woman who chooses to be free.
It was almost offensive to them the way she moved about—her cinnamon skin radiating through its pores the magnificent world that pulsated underneath. She was all soul—and even those repulsed by her nonconformity couldn’t help but to be curious and drawn in.
Magnetism is a force beyond understanding for those who are asleep, but conscious or completely oblivious; the power of a mystical, awakened woman takes on energy of its own making all sense of logic impalpable.
Perhaps this is the flaw of human conditioning at play. Those who make the choice to be rare birds and embrace the nature of their true self—the self that has been buried under layers and layers of disapprovement and judgements—are further ridiculed and punished for flying outside of the box. They are called freaks, fucking weirdos, queer, and an abomination to the “Stepford Indoctrination” that forbids individualism. Anyone who chooses not to comply with this death march towards the obliteration of thinking for oneself automatically falls into enemy territory.
Time and transformation had already made her aware of this, yet—she still chose the fall.
She knew that choosing to remain confined to one of way of being would be far worse than any amount of rejection and unkindness that could be inflicted upon her. Denying the promptings of one’s spirit to live true to form can leave a deep imprint on the soul and cause disintegration of one’s life force—and that was a risk she was unwilling to take. So she endured the bewildered stares and ways of thinking that poured from the narrow minds of those who thought they had the power to define who she was. Wisdom guided her to an innerstanding that this disdain was simply a mask for a longing to be that brave. Hate is often disguised as love—so she greeted their taunts with compassion.
These are ways of a mystical woman and all those who choose to abandon the foundation that was built upon enslaving one’s truth for one that is built upon freedom of self. Breaking down barriers and forging one’s own path is never a smooth and painless transition. Transformation is a reconstruction of everything one has ever believed—beliefs that should have never been programmed and habitually practiced to begin with. So to expect a world that is intensely ingrained in self-denial to embrace with love and acceptance a journey that calls for them to leave their comfort zone of untruth is almost masochist.
One cannot hold oneself responsible for swaying an entire nation of followers—so she chose to lead.
She danced within the poetic and fierce rhythm of her own authenticity—spinning and spinning until she created this hypnotic whirl of light. Some began to become entranced by this rainbow spectrum emanating from her soul and wanted to become one with it; some found her light much too illuminating and sought out shelter for their eyes—fleeing the unveiling that couldn’t be escaped if they got too close to her; and some wished death upon her for having the gall to show the others the way back to themselves.
Still—she danced and accepted with honor the title of being a freak of nature.
Nature is a kaleidoscope of intricacies that may appear to be grotesque, but possess an unadulterated beauty and the capacity to heal all that come into contact with it.
This was exactly who she was—an embodiment of nature.
Akasha Oshun is a traveling freelance writer and blogger hailing from the “Windy City” of Chicago. She’s a hedonistic Goddess and holistic health enthusiast who’s passionate about educating women and young girls on how to be more connected to mind, body, and spirit and hopes to be a catalyst for helping others transform every area of their life and be their most authentic self.